I am 36 weeks and 5 days today, it has been a hectic week I must say especially during the weekend for my sister in law’s wedding, I wasn’t that active because my energy wasn’t that high and I get too tired easily. huhu. & everybody says that my stomach has dropped and they assume I would go into labor before my due date…Wallahuaklam.

In my previous post, I have said that my baby was in a breech position at 34 weeks..other than praying and hoping that the baby will turn on its own, I have tried doing specific exercise. This week, I had my ultrasound in RIPAS. and yes, my baby is still breech. They refer me to a specialist, and we talked about options and what it means and so on. She said, if I’m 36 weeks plus pregnant already, the chances of the baby to turn is 2%. But she still want me to be positive, do some exercise. Manatau dengan izin Allah, we have the rezeki of that 2%. Other than that, she gave me 2 options if the baby is still breech. Which is to do a c-section or before that, the doctor will try to massage me and turn the baby around. I haven’t made any decision yet though. But, the doctor had booked me for a c-section in less than 2 weeks.

Honestly, when I found out that the baby is still breech..I was a bit down and was hoping that my baby had turn. and while I was waiting to see my doctor, my mood wasn’t there but I tried to stay calm. and I’m thankful for my doctor because she really calm me down and I end up actually being positive and happy.

I have to be positive because in the end, my baby will sense and know if I’m not. and I really don’t want to give out moody, sad and bad energy especially if i’m really hoping and wanting to have a normal delivery rather than a c-section. It is as if, I’m not happy to see my baby if I were to have an operation. I know the chances of the baby turning is 2% but I will try my best to try to make the baby to turn. I have researched on exercise like ‘sujud’ for 10 minutes, 2 times a day. Shining light at my pelvic area, putting warm things at the pelvic and cold on top. and not forgetting, to pray to Allah for what’s best. But I really don’t want to make ‘normal delivery’ my focus and priority, I know that’s the best option but who really knows what’s the best option for us other than Allah right? I don’t want people and myself to put in mind that c-section is the last and bad option..there is no good or bad option, though I’m trying to turn my baby..I will take c-section with open arms. In the end, only Allah knows what is best for me and my baby. and if the baby is still breech and I have to operate, that is my best option and I’m happy.

I know people get scared that if we were to have an operation, the chance of a normal delivery after that is not high or the chances of having many kids is also not high. But who are we to say actually? Rezeki anak, only Allah knows. and rather than me being too focus on one thing, I want to be focusing on both..as in accepting both options and preparing both for it, and knowing that option in the end..is in fact what is best for me and our baby. In shaa Allah, only He knows. 🙂 🙂 🙂 and plus, my doctor is super nice and she says that everything will be okay because me and baby is healthy and normal..and that is a huge relieve, as long as we are okay that is what counts.

Symptoms this week? I’m getting more tired and more heavy in the stomach..I can really feel that my stomach is low. People get confused actually seeing that my stomach has dropped and knowing that I’m having pelvic pressure, stomach tightness and so on, cause that is usually the symptoms when the baby’s head is already engaged. I think, when a baby is breech, I guess the symptoms are different? and my mom said, usually when the baby is breech..you can feel this ‘sanak’ feeling on top of the stomach because of the baby’s head but I don’t have that feeling..in fact, I feel so free on top. Although my symptoms and appearance looks like my baby’s engaged and head down but ultrasound says otherwise. and I have read that the baby can be engaged especially right now but what’s engaged is not the head obviously, but the baby’s bum..and this can actually be more difficult to turn the baby naturally. I have yet to confirm what position our baby is in, and what kind of breech it is.

My visit to the doctor will be weekly and my next appointment will be this Wednesday next week. She will check if our baby is still breech and in shaa Allah we have time, up until the scheduled c-section..my doctor will keep on checking the position. Speaking on trying to turn the baby head down, I have said that I’ve done some exercise..and alhamdulillah, I’m doing it daily so far, but what is still making me not sure and ‘ragu-ragu’ is to have a massage. The doctor strongly advised me not to do it but on the other hand, family members and friends said it’s okay as long as the person who is massaging you really knows what she’s doing and of course have successful outcomes. I am still debating about this, to do it or not? I have not found a person who has experience doing this, just the ones who massage pregnant ladies..but the one who has experience turning the baby around? not yet. That is what scares me because I’ve heard stories both success and the failed one. *sigh*

Overall, I accept any outcome..whether its normal delivery or c-section. As long as mommy and baby is healthy and safe. Aamiin Aamiin Yarabbal Alamin. 🙂 🙂 🙂

2 days for my 37th weeks pregnancy, meaning Full Term!! Alhamdulillah.

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, I am 34 weeks pregnant today. 🙂 Only 6 weeks until my due date in shaa Allah and only 3 weeks to go for the baby to be mature, meaning after 37 weeks..it is consider okay to give birth. 🙂 Honestly, I hope baby comes out before my due date..in shaa Allah, dengan izinNya jua.

” Your baby now weighs about 4 3/4 pounds (like your average cantaloupe) and is almost 18 inches long. Fat layers- which will help regulate your baby’s body temperature after birth – are filling your baby out, making him or her rounder. Your baby’s skin is also smoother than ever.

The central nervous system is maturing, and your baby’s lungs are continuing to mature as well. If you’ve been nervousabout preterm labour, you’ll be happy to know that babies born between 34 and 37 weeks who have no other health problems generally do fine. They may need a short stay in the neonatal nursery and may have a few short-term issues, but in the long run, they usually do as well as full-term babies” – Baby Center, Pregnancy App

Baby continues being active, alhamdulillah. and right now, it’s more into him/her rolling and turning rather than kicking me..I guess less space for the baby to move. I actually can feel and sense how the baby’s position is because I kinda feel his/her bum. hehe. From my last appointment, doctor feels that the babys head is already down and I can feel her/him really down there..the feeling is very ngilu-like. and baby is very active at dawn..and since my sleeping pattern is not normal nowadays, I enjoy having the baby with me whenever I’m still awake. 🙂 🙂

As for me, I am trying to not really ‘layan’ my laziness and try to be active. I’m not sure if what I’m feeling is Braxton Hicks but if it is it, I am feeling it now and then. I have this two feelings that I have been experiencing, one is the tightness of the stomach. I feel my stomach tightens, making my back hurt so bad..and I feel like my muscles being pulled and expand. and the second one, is cramps..period-like cramps to be exact + diarrhea cramps + backache. I asked my doctor about the second one because whenever I ask my friends, they are always familiar with the tightness rather than the cramps. But the doctor seems confuse at first when I told her what I had experience, and finally she said maybe what I’m feeling is the tightness of the stomach. *sigh* not really sure if she understands me.

My next appointment will be next week and my ultrasound will be on the next day. Do we want to know our babys gender? Of course but I don’t really mind knowing it after giving birth or before, I guess we have to wait and see on the actual day. If we feel like knowing, I will probably ask. 😛 Like I have said, my sleeping pattern has changed. I’m not sure if I am experiencing Insomnia, it’s just that I tend to sleep during the day rather than at night. That is why sometimes I force myself to not sleep in the daytime so that I could be tired and sleepy during night. It worked really, but I always end up sleeping back during the afternoon.

People kept on saying that my walk has changed, waddling now. haha..hey, as long as it’s common during pregnancy..and plus, my stomach is heavy now. I can’t wait actually for the baby to come but at the same time, I want to relax and enjoy my pregnancy..cause I know I will miss being pregnant especially feeling the baby inside. 🙂 Mudah-mudahan dengan izin Allah, kami dimurahkan rezeki and have a lot of children. 😛 Aamiin…

Thank you for reading. Assalamualaikum. 🙂

Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Allah SWT that we had made it this far. 🙂 I have entered the third trimester and so many mixed feelings; happy, excited, scared, nervous, anxious…to name a few. 😀 But before I continue writing about the current time, I want to recap the details I experienced throughout my previous 2 trimester.

First things first, I found out that I was pregnant in September..after Hari Raya. (I think so..) and I don’t know if every newly wife feels the same as me..which is that I became very aware of my body and the changes. and I bet every newlywed will tell you that your hormones and body will change after getting married, and this will automatically lead to the question of “am I pregnant?” or “is this a sign of pregnancy?” arghhh…the pressure right???

Although there were many new symptoms and changes in hormones, I never really had that feeling that I was pregnant. Until the time that I was actually pregnant. hehe. It was not only the signs, but I had that gut feeling..not like the previous ones. That feeling that this time, it’s different. My gut feeling was so strong that I had the urge to check the pregnancy test, although I haven’t past my period due and it was at night time. I read that if you want the accurate reading, do it in the morning..the first morning urine. I didn’t care..I just follow my gut and tawakal tawakal tawakal.

and Alhamdulillah, positive! I didn’t believe it at first, but then I tried again with another test..and two lines! I was shocked because it was very visible, and I haven’t past my due. I guess I must have calculated it wrong. hehe.

First Trimester

I didn’t really have any bad reaction like severe vomiting and nausea. All I can remember at that time, I don’t have any appetite at all..not that I don’t have any appetite because I feel nausea, just the ‘selera’ was gone. I remember eating Zinger Burger from KFC all the time because at that time, that is all I want to eat. and the worst part is, still from this day the number one food that I still don’t have the ‘liur’ to eat is Nasi Ayam Penyet from Pondok Seri Wangi. 😦 A bummer, really!! It’s one of my favorite dish. I remember ordering it, and I just stood there looking down at the food and nada selera.. just no selera at all. Before, I can just picture Nasi Penyet, and I will get hungry automatically. hehe.

Overall, my 1st trimester I didn’t get enough food because my appetite was not really there, making my stomach empty most of the time..meaning I was having gastric pain constantly. Yes, that was the only that I wish I don’t have throughout my pregnancy. My nausea wasn’t that bad..but my gastric were. huhu. Actually, the reason why I feel nausea was because I didn’t eat anything..and there’s a time where i did puke because of it.

Second Trimester

I feel my very best during this period. I finally got my appetite back and I slowly can eat anything (not penyet..) I barely remember what went on and how I felt during my 2nd trimester because it was so normal that sometimes I didn’t feel that I was pregnant. My stomach wasn’t showing that much yet and the hormones, appetite and moods were normal. Maybe by the end of the 2nd trimester it got real. I think after 20 weeks, I started feeling pregnant.

The best feeling is when I first started feeling the baby’s kick. I can’t remember what week it was, and I wasn’t sure if it was a kick or just gas. but I was confident that the first time I felt was actually the baby’s kicking. 🙂

Third Trimester

I just entered my final trimester, I am currently 29 weeks plus and so far, my pregnancy has been a little up and down. I am definitely feeling all the symptoms..cramps, heavy breathing, backaches, etc etc. I can’t even stand/sit at the same position for more than 10 minutes. I feel tired all the time, and I decided to take a break from baking because of this.

The best part is that we have started to buy things for the baby. 🙂 Alhamdulillah, we have managed to get plenty of baby things..but there are more still to buy. and I realized that my energy to shop decreases. I have to limit myself to one shop a day..two the very most. and one of the best thing is feeling my baby move and kick everyday. 😀 I know at this time, I have to count the number of movements/kicks the baby make in an hour..so far, alhamdulillah the baby is very active. Sometimes the movement is a bit painful especially when I feel his/her kicks on my sides.

My appetite for this trimester is really high! I am hungry all the time..I can eat rice for 3 rounds and still feel hungry. :p I don’t mind indulging on everything once in a while because I didn’t gain as much for the last 6 months, and I plan on making it my mission to gain for this trimester, a normal increase that is. 😀 and I continued with drinking milk..alhamdulillah everyday. I tried chocolate milk from ANMUM at first, then I tried milk..and surprisingly it tasted better than the chocolate. I have never been a fan of milk..and I’m glad I can drink it now. It’s good for the baby’s skin and bones!

Time flies very fast and I can’t believe I am already 7 months plus, 2 months+ more to go until my due date! Other than trying to relax, I am anxious and excited on shopping for baby things. All of this, will be on another post in shaa Allah. I really hope I can update this blog more often..until next time.

Assalamualaikum. 🙂